Wednesday, August 24
i realise anyone could easily guess my new password, but maybe i don't care because who the hell would want to waste their time reading ramblings? the whole password procedure is simply for the sake of my mistrustful sanity.
i realised i'm not the only one who gets dizzy in bright, crowded places. annie does too! haha phew i thought i was a freak. going to ikea or really big shiny libraries makes me feel tired and hurts my head. i guess this means i can't be a librarian when i grow up. oh well.
yay annie rocks!! she told me fwah's name!! but she didn't tell me how it's spelt or anything. i told her i don't really like her name, and she said it's because i can't pronounce it, which is quite true.. i took all of five minutes to roll my tongue around the words. yes it's chinese. it really brightened my mood. haha see, the little things! i don't care that she's attached, it's not like i expected anything. it's just a pleasant distraction.
we came up with baby names during econs! =D in an attempt to girly-fy 'darryl', we came up with 'darylle'. so my first child [of course she will be a girl] will be named 'janevieve darylle' [a tribute to both gen-not-a-hammie and jan], and if she's girly she can use either name. if she's tomboyish she can go along with darryl. see i'm so considerate =D second child [also a girl] will be called 'aurora donne'. i wanted aurora dawn, since they both mean the same thing, and are such pretty names, but i realised that it would be awful if she didn't turn out girly and had two girly names. once again, note my consideration!! haha she can call herself don if she likes, i really wouldn't care. it's nice to have a choice sometimes. shall think about chinese names later. hopefully they'll include musical / poetic connotations. please note that in the event that i do not marry [highly likely], i'll just adopt two girls instead and raise them to heartbreaking perfection.
sick of my exam pieces. played a2 and b2 twice, then felt irritated at everything and played 'wish' and 'forbidden love' instead. somehow, it's easier to play if you imagine the scene, if you imagine the heartache and longing and angst. and project those emotions into your fingers as they dance across the keys..
i guess all i want is fresh air and a little sunlight, lots of pretty scenery and someone nice by my side. cut out humidity, excessive heat and insects, and i'll be happy. a lyre-playing minstrel would really make my day =D
it must have been love, but it's over now.it must have been good, but i've lost it somehow.not all who sing love songs are lovelorn.
it must've been love.
8:10 pm
xoxo
